Monday, August 3, 2009
My Friends
Just an attitude, an eye-contact, a tone, or a body language can cause someone to judge.
As someone who always crave for freedom (of speech, expression, etc), I find it really boring to choose my words and expression so as not to leave a wrong/bad one.
Deep down, I find myself so fake that I want to puke. Why would I subject myself to replicate others' ways of surviving in this concrete jungle? Shouldn't we be fighting to be accepted the way we truly are? Unless the truth is evil, perhaps.
I never once stop to think and appreciate my friends until I lose a dear one to Death.
Similarly, I keep thinking that my friends have forsaken me (vice versa) until I called one of them. Yesterday, I couldn't stop myself from boiling even after taking in 100 deep breaths.
Yet, my friend's understanding worked like miracle when I didn't even say a single shit.
“So what happened? Once I see your call, I put down all my works so that I can hear your complains."
It's just so comforting to know that at the end of the day, there's at least one person that truly understands and won't consider me as BAD even though I am full of complains and bad attitude.
Many people can't tolerate straight-forwardness. I wonder if there's something wrong with their souls.
I am glad that my FYP partner is so frank. She just never fails to brighten up my days. I am thankful to have this handful of people whom allow me to be myself.
Still, I may try to express myself "correctly" as requested so that I won't bite with my words and actions. However, do you know that it is at the expense of me?
It's a choice made between you and me.
