Thursday, September 9, 2010
Perhaps it would be easier if it weren't such a special date, for a thoughtless person like me.
It felt weird to look forward endlessly to something that isn't there anymore.
It felt sad not to be able to say " Happy Birthday" and see your smile.
I miss you, on every school holiday.
Wondering when will you date me again, worrying if you were happy over there.
Whenever there's an unexpected oversea call, I secretly longed that it is from you.
As Xmas draws near, I wished that I will get to receive ur card, surprises, well wishes and ur voice.
I promise, I will treasure this time.
It's just so difficult not being able to talk to you ever again.
Thursday, July 8, 2010
When things go wrong, as they somtimes (always) will,
when the road you are trudging seems all uphill,
when the funds ar elow and the debts are high,
and you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
when care is pressing you down a bit,
rest, if you must, but do not quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
as every one of us sometimes learns,
when he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow,
you may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than, it seems to a faint and faltering man,
often the struggler has given up,
when he might have captured the victor's cup,
and he learned too late when the night slipped down,
how close he was to the golden crown.
Success is failure turned inside out.
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
and you never can tell how close you are,
it may be near when it seems so far, so stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
it's when things seem worst that you must not quit.
I become a demanding gf when it comes to jobs, no, career.
Like a relationship, it has to be one where I can see myself committed to for a long time. (Maybe it's not so good, afterall.)
I know I shouldn't be choosy given my lousy class of honours, so my priority is money.
As long as they pay me well enough, I don mind doing boring stuffs.
Of course, if the prospects are really well but pay a little low, I will still prefer it.
I am so afraid that the fate of my job hunt will be similar to my past experiences.
Always cursed and never getting what I wished for.
Please just let me be lucky like before I turned 12.
So, I can plan my next dream trip and get my hands on those bags, shoes, clothes that I like instead of those in Taiwan, HK, etc.
Ok, being realistic, I will have to clear the study loan 1st, I hate paying for interests and being in debt.
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Looking back at the blogs, so much have changed.
I am glad that my fren is happily leading her life with a caring partner.
I admire her courage for going against all odds just to be with her love.
There seems to have an expiry date for everything...
For everything that was once cherished.
If only I can be so lucky that everything given to me wasn't a bonus but something I deserved.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Thank you, Mr. 24/7
Someone claims to love me yet he got all upset when I don't wish to fulfill his selfish desires.
He kept talkin
about HIS dream about us without a care about mine.
Is love supposed to make me feel disgusted?
Well, at least this person makes me appreciate someone else.
Thank you Mr Catus
for always been there. I nv
understand how you do that.
Thank you for saying things that I wanna hear when I needed assurance.
Thank you for saying things that I don wish to hear when I needed another opinion.
Thank you for being that someone who loved me so real.
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Don't you get it?
It's not that I want to declare defeat even before the battle starts, it just seemed that I have to work so much harder than others to achieve similar thing. Or maybe not even get it after putting much more effort. So, if you don't try to understand, stop bothering me to show that you "care".
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Finally, it's over
The semester ended with a paper that I don't think i can even pass.
sighs... hopefully, there's empathy point just for graduation.
There nothing much to look forward to except that there will be no more studying for now.
So, now I am on the way to a new path with a new role- Money Slave.
Innocently, I walked into those money traps.
There's really no free lunch in the world *shakes head vigorously*
I can foresee myself being pressurised to look for a job, then divide the salary to different "departments". It's like paying for those extra add-on for the handphone that Singtel "automatically" charge you for when you don't even want it, don even know it, don even need it!
I don't dare to accept "free" gifts shove at me anymore.
Thursday, April 15, 2010
So much for anticipation
Am giving up the America Dream...
No one really understand, isn't it?
Sunday, April 11, 2010
It doesn't matter
If it isn't exactly what I dreamt of, then anything else meant nothing.
If it isn't something I like, then it doesn't count
It's not the thought that counts...
Where is the thought when you don deliver whatever u know i long for?
Come on, b yourself n stop following others' footstep.
It's a wrong start to begin with.